A Emotional Fool Or A Never Die Spirit In The Wrong
Direction...no One Knows...do You?
It starts with the fact that no one
appreciates a individuality in a indian woman....Is it too much of thoughts or
a confused mind for ever or a broth of both? A mother who has a disturbed past
and ornamented present which is nowhere near her dream...a mother's efforts to
bring out the best in her daughter while she doesn’t know she is at her
worst... A father who dies for his siblings by killing his wife and child's
needs....Amidst....the child had a fairly good support miraculously for all the
milestones she wanted....A child whose mind grew faster than her height...a child
who learnt the tricks of individuality while her thoughts and actions were
shunned by the creatures of ego in her own family..Anything she said as a
outlet of her mind was tagged as emotion and never did anyone anyone have
patience to try and help her...agreed the child being a child had her own
antics and wasn’t a angel as well...but nonetheless was not a devil...She
grew...accepting and looking forward to her dreams in life...accepting the disappointments
which heeded as foundations to her....and was with herself.....trying to make
her ways bridging with the ones of near ones...until...a boy steps into her
life...he was everything she wanted in the name of emotions....giving her
ultimate happiness...a sense of completion...but destiny had its own maps to
follow....there was a girl who liked the boy...he said he doesn’t...but...he
proposed our girl...she she refused...she was in turmoil ...in a phase of
financial and emotional anguish while her dad had been cheated by her uncle in
a prime property over which the family had lost their peace and money...she had
managed to secure a roof in the name of a home...her own nest...she realized
she loved that boy and surprised and shocked herself by caring him more than
anyone in this world...she knew the shortcoming..She knew the faults...but
wanted to give faith and change her life...he had meanwhile decided to commit
himself to the other girl....In the name of love it was a joke...a emotion
which pulled me ,' the girl' in the words above into valleys of emotion, depression,
anguish and eroded self worth...shameless and mad...trying to think he was
confused...took two years to accept a harsh reality he never ever loved
me....It was trick of destiny...scared to wish...scarred to think...never
ventured in the ways of love...happy with myself...dont know why I treaded on
it...Cant stop feeling yet..Want to feel happy forever again...but never can be
the same again...want to move ahead...but unable to...have lost golden
opportunites in life otherwise...mentally tied up and stuck up...want to tell
him and my god...stop playing such tricks which for a person different from the
rest like me will never be a joke...aimless yet busy...crammed yet
lonely...have forgotten the walk of my life...One thing after another ...may be
others have worst...but I never felt better....want myself back..Lost
myself...happens with everyone...but I am not everyone...
